Morning Revelations

Moring thoughts...

As an imperfect human, as much as I try to convey confidence during my walk of life, I too, occasionally grapple with insecurities. Occasionally, such insecurities will rear their ugly heads as I continue to do the hard work it takes to heal from past traumas. Occasionally, I allow those insecurities to creep into my relationships with others, giving them a more raw - sometimes distasteful - glimpse of my imperfect humanness. I've left myself vulnerable and open to ridicule or disdain. It's terrifying!

I hear a voice say to me. "Stop it! You're overthinking this again. Let it be. Enjoy the ride." I smile, as I remember one of the most fundamental things in life. Happiness. And, I deserve to be happy in whatever form it presents itself.

I am reminded that God is a transformative God and I don't have to worry about allowing the insecurities from present headaches, past traumas, or self-doubt to infiltrate my heart. I don't have to worry about those insecurities being the narrator or main character of my story. I am reminded that those things which I deem inadequacies are used by God to show me, and others, how effective he is in my life as he uses those things as catalysts for change in my heart, mind, and soul.

Today, I am grateful to recall that I am a worthy agent for change.

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N'cki Jaxon