Fin: Hello to Healing

How Audacious of you...

So, you want to call me out on expressing my feelings because you can't handle your own. My feelings are just that, MY FEELINGS. I grieve the end of this relationship in a manner that's therapeutic for me. That has nothing to do with you!

Just when I was turning the corner to forgiveness and attempting to move forward, you've given me pause to reconsider and amount of respect that I've had for you.

In one phone call, you set out to blame me for your choices! Projection much?!

"You make me feel like the guilty party. You make me feel ashamed. You make me feel like I'm a loser." These phrases are what you garnered because you read about MY FEELINGS!? Truly baffling. Narcissistic much?!

You feel guilty because you are guilty. You feel ashamed because you hid your true self. The gentle kind person you showed to me appears nothing more than a mask you wore to reel me into your world, eliciting trust in you. I let my guard down because you did and said "all the right things". I trusted you.

"It's not about money", you say. "It's about little things." Yet, EVERY thing you throw in my face points back to Money. 💰 All of your scheming and illegal activities must have gone to your brain because you've got me messed up if you think I'll fall prey to your shenanigans, while you talk down to me from your moral throne of hypocrisy. Imposter much?! Manipulate much?!

The clarity is evident! There are numerous grievances you hold against me. However, you never conveyed any of these concerns until now. So, your approach is to hold me accountable for your lack of communication? How intriguing. You speak of being partners, yet you never provided me with a chance to address any concerns. You chose to remain silent, citing shame as the reason for withholding such matters. Yet, you blame me for your failure to communicate! Curious indeed. You were open about various topics, just not the ones that troubled you. How peculiar.

Your recent actions proved to me, it was all just BS wrapped in a nice package.

I can't fathom that I shed so many tears over you! They were frequent, prolonged, and heartfelt. I contemplated ways to "fix it" without even understanding what needed fixing. So, what's left? I apologize for causing you any pain or distress. However, your callous words have revealed that you are undeserving of my tears, apologies, or attempts to make amends. Above all, you didn't deserve the love I reserved exclusively for you. You either lack the ability or the desire to cherish and handle it delicately.

So no worries, I'm giving you exactly what you want. I'm revoking your consent to enter my heart. I'm changing the locks and you'll no longer have a key. Fret not, for the love I gave is forever yours; no regrets there. Remember it well because you'll never again be a recipient of it! 😢🌎

With that, I bid you a heartfelt farewell and opt to cherish the positive memories. Our paths crossed for a reason, serving a purpose in our journeys. I will not be ashamed or regretful of showing love, empathy, and grace. Forgiveness is real and in time we'll both heal.

And, because my love is always true, I leave you with my sincerest wish for you to experience endless joy, happiness, and prosperity in every aspect of your life. I genuinely hope that you discover the abundance you seek and embrace it wholeheartedly. I pray that whatever is broken within your soul is transformed into something that makes you feel whole and complete. 🙏🏽💛

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N'cki J.