More Than Lasagna

Last night for dinner, I cooked lasagna. It was truly a labor of love. My lasagna is not only filled with meat and cheese but also every bit of my love and affection. When I cook lasagna it’s soaked in my spirit, filled with my dreams, and drenched in my tenderness. It makes my heart happy to share it with people I love. I immediately thought of him!

I smiled and thought of him because I knew that I’d cooked it for him. I wanted to send him a picture or video to share with him. But, I didn’t. I couldn’t. So, I cried. I cried because, this time, I think to myself, are we irretrievably broken? 💔 I cried again and wiped away the tears from my cheeks but they continued to flow. I’d lost my appetite as my piece of lasagna had become too salty from catching my tears. 😢 I retreated to my room – heartbroken and full of sadness.

Perhaps, he has a point…not loving is a better way to navigate life. Maybe, I too should "bury my love"… Nah, my love is a gift of epic proportion...worth more than its weight in gold! My love is the essence of who I am and I will not allow my essence to become filled with toxicity. My lasagna - my cooking - is filled with all of my essence!

—- N’cki Jaxon

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