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Afraid to Love

Do I stay or do I go? Not knowing if my love is returned. Afraid to love.

Fearful, I love him more than he loves me. Oh God, opening myself up to pain & vulnerability. Afraid to love.

I’ve loved twice before. Though, once, I’ve loved badly. Moving beyond a past of hurt & anguish. Afraid to love.

Geez, I’ve jumped from this damned cliff without a chute Reckless? Perhaps. Brave? For sure. Will he catch me? I pray so. Afraid to love.

My mind’s playing tricks on me. An Existential crises occurs. Think he’s unable and unwilling to love me. That’s crazy. Afraid to love.

Doesn’t he realize that I’m so damn loveable? Doean’t he notice, I’m so easy to love? Afraid to love.

Will I make him happy, without loosing myself? Does he want me the way I want him? Afraid to love.

How do I convey to My Love I want to build a life with him yet, I’m Afraid to love.

Love’s light enters and vividly reminds me Love is noble, sublime, astonishing & wondrous. Love is everything that my spirit encompass and more.

Love inquires… Still Afriad to Love? Nope. Afraid to be broken.

—- For “MyLove” N’cki Jaxon, @TheOnly1LadyJ

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