Broken and Shattered

Tonight, I took a walk in the rain to allow my tears to flow for I wanted no one to see me cry. I wanted to be alone with my thoughts. I wanted to be alone to process and understand. But, never did I simply just want to be alone – be without him in my life.

Tonight, I took a walk alone in the rain to allow my tears to flow for I wanted no one to see me cry. It’s been said, “home is where the heart is” and I thought that my new home was with him. Pieces of my tattered heart will forever live across the Atlantic. I freely gave him those pieces. He chose not to handle them with care. Shattered and broken.

Tonight, I took a walk in the rain to allow my tears to flow for I wanted no one to see me cry. I wanted to mourn the loss of what I thought would be a great love story. I wanted to figure out how to pick the pieces of my heart that he broke. I wanted to figure out how to glue them back together.

Tonight, I took a walk in the rain to allow my tears to flow for I wanted no one to see me cry. What do I do now with all of the plans we were to share together? Trying to understand. Why, after all this time, did I have to fall in love with him? Why was he the one? What lessons do I need to learn from this?

It’s supposed to rain, the rest of the week. I’ll walk again in the rain as I want for no one to see me cry.

—- N’cki Jaxon

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