Moment of Happy Insanity

In an Instant, Ute Bivona

October 11th, 2021 Today I woke full of excitement, ready to share with you the fun bits of my evening last night. It was a great night full of fun, laughter, friendship, happiness, light, and love. It made me smile. Then, another feeling comes over me -- profound sadness. 😔 Why? You're not here to share in the happiness, love, and light in my life. Looking through the documented memories of the evening past, only brought to light the vulnerabilities of my heart. I miss you so much that my belly aches. I'm craving your voice, your scent, your touch, your kisses, your smile, your laughter, your odd sense of humor, your unique way of taking in life... I'm simply yearning for the essence of all things (anything) you! We've made so many plans. I'm starting to think they're getting further away from us. When will they come to fruition? When will we close this distance that's tugging at multiple pieces of my heart? The most insane thought comes to me... In a brief moment of possible insanity, I think that the most important thing to me today is what will transpire when we next embrace. I'll take all of your essence deep inside of me and allow you to give me all the best parts of yourself while praying that when I leave you next, that I've taken your seed with me to be nurtured and loved as it grows within me. At least then, when we're apart, I'll always have a part of you with me!

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N'cki Jaxon